I am so sick of crying.
Every atom inside me is dying.
I'm currently 11km above land, yeh I'm flying..
But too many secrets of late,
Are killing me slowly from hiding.
Obvious is the right path to choose,
Risking it all, everything I might lose.
I'm not willing to give up the love,
I spent so long trying to prove.
In vain, my heart bleeds, so confused.
From sane logic to emotional abuse...
Comfort is what keeps us, Ahead of the changes,
Connection severed and dangerous,
I'm still hooked on the slavery,
Bitter words fought for wages, 12 months took for ages,
Developing, growing through different stages,
I wish you had the strength; the strength to try save us...
As I reminisce all the memories, listen and watch the evidence..
All tainted with unsavory, energy of pain and sacrilege.
No laughter no kindness, The drugs stole our good heartiness.
What happened to it all? Once inseparable, now always departed.
Did we ever actually achieve what we dreamed?
The happiness could have been real so it seemed,
But maybe I'm dilluded, it never was stated..
False realities created, multiple destinies to steal, the end already fated.
If I go down the path, of which is provided,
With life blessings in guidance,
Will my heart still be divided?
Will my head feel decided?
Will this pain be defied and no longer ignited??
Instead finally filled with excitement???
I think, Actually no, I know I am fucking entitled!!!
I don't understand, why it fucking hurts so much...
Or that I've never felt again, that electrical touch...
Instead it's a settling feeling as such,
Knowing I will be looked after, Instead of bleeding from disaster..
Happiness and unconditional love, is all I've ever been after..
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