Sunday, 30 December 2012

More INTJ ranting

So I've been explaining my INTJ traits to my gfolks. My grandma said that on my report card from when I was a little girl the teacher noted "Becky does not take into consideration her classmates feelings" hahahaha soooo true...



http://intjcentral.com/the-compleat-idiots-guide-to-the-intj/5/ - thanks to this amazing link.. Full Credit to them for all information on this page.

INTJ Overview
Since numerous detailed INTJ type descriptions are already available on the web, we’ll just hit the high points here:

We’re smart.
We are visionaries, strategic (and compulsive) planners, big-picture thinkers, complex problem solvers, adept decision makers, conceptualists, theorists, and pattern recognizers – in short, we are “masterminds” [insert evil mastermind laugh here].

We don’t do feelings.
We use critical thinking, reason, and logic. We have a tough time with people who make decisions based on emotions, and we can often come across as blunt and cold because we ignore the feelings of others. But on the plus side, we take criticism well since we have no feelings to hurt.

We live inside our heads.
We frequently zone out. We get lost in thought and spend much of our time inside our heads. If our immediate reality becomes boring, we will retreat into our minds, and you might have to shout our names repeatedly to get our attention so we will come out again. And no, sorry, but you can’t come into our heads with us. You wouldn’t last five minutes there. You’d be driven insane by the nonstop cacophony of overlapping voices madly free-associating from one idea to the next.

We are self-confident.
No type is more self-confident than the INTJ. We have a very keen awareness of our own knowledge and abilities, and – more importantly – of the limits of our knowledge and abilities. Consequently we can come across as arrogant sometimes. This is your problem to deal with, not ours, since it is a problem of erroneous perception (yours).

We are aloof.
Because we are somewhat detached from reality, because we are introverted (we find interacting with people to be tiring and tiresome), because we are very private, and because we are impassive, we tend to come across as rather reserved and aloof. Okay, we actually are reserved and aloof.

> Conversing with an INTJ <

DON’T ask one of us a question unless you really want a truthful answer. We will not sugarcoat it for you, and we don’t tell white lies to spare anyone’s feelings. Do you really, truthfully want to know if those jeans make your ass look fat? Normal person’s response: “Um, no, you look fine. Really.” Honest person’s response: “Well… maybe a different belt would help?” INTJ’s response: “No, it’s not the jeans that make your ass look fat; it’s your fat ass that makes your ass look fat.”

DON’T express an opinion to us unless you are prepared to back it up with sound arguments and well pedigreed facts and evidence. Otherwise do not be surprised when we logically shred your opinion for you and hand it back to you in tatters.

DON’T be repetitive. We have absolutely no patience for that. There’s no need to cover old ground, and we heard you the first time, unless we were zoning out. And if we were zoning out it’s probably because you started repeating yourself.

DON’T take 100 words to say what could have been said in 10. Content-free speech will cause an INTJ to zone out faster than repeating yourself.

DON’T engage us in “small talk”. Keep in mind that you are competing for our attention with all the voices in our heads, and they are bound to be far more interesting than you. The voices are constantly regaling us with things like anagrams of Wayne Newton (Wanton Weeny, We Annoy Newt, New Yawn Tone, …) and candidate titles for parodies of “Carry On My Wayward Son” (“Cary Grant Was Six Foot One”, “Curry On My Egg Foo Yung”, …). Do you really think your talk of the weather or your six year old’s soccer league is going to be more compelling than that? Please. Be realistic.

DON’T look at an INTJ in bewilderment when he/she discloses an idea to you. Yes, it may have required a double somersault of imagination to reach their conclusion. Ask them to take you through it step-by-step; they will happily oblige. Ideas are of ultimate importance to an INTJ, and it is a compliment for them to share their ideas with you. Similarly, failing to give due attention to an INTJ’s idea is a high form of insult.

DO… um… well, we thought there should be at least one “DO” but we can’t think of one. Oh, how about this: DO keep it short.

http://intjcentral.com/the-compleat-idiots-guide-to-the-intj/5/ - thanks to this amazing link.. Full Credit to them for all information on this page.




Tuesday, 25 December 2012

Doomsday Confusion




That's ok, let me help explain :) the Maya's never predicted the world to end, simply the resetting of the era of time like when going from 99999 in your car back to 0000. So nothing to do with the end. However they did record an expansion of our consciousness. We only use 10% of our consciousness when we interact the world. The 90% is subconscious in our minds and this is what everyone will start utilising more naturally now as apart of human evolution (technology, information all like never before in history.) here is a quick read on it http://www.lifetrainings.com/Your-unconscious-mind-is-running-you-life.html

The Age of Aquarius is an astrological term denoting either the current or upcoming astrological age, depending on the method of calculation. Astrologers maintain that an astrological age is a product of the earth's slow precessional rotation and lasts for 2,150 years, on average.

Hope that helps. Best video to watch to understand even just the first 15 minutes will help change your life for the better.. Check out this video on YouTube:

http://youtu.be/hlfYHAV1i8w

Just remember... Feel and create Love.... Never Fear..



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Tuesday, 18 December 2012

The Dove Story

*Fount this in a notebook from earlier this year*

The Dove Story

Well we're here, we made it.
To the place our dreams combined, we created. Should have thought about what to do next, guess we didn't believe we'd actually pass the test.
But it's been the best, fears put to rest, now I sleep comfortably, head against your chest, listening softly to cassettes. No more mention of the threats that's been plaguing us since the day we met.

I'm happy, relaxed. Even though I still feel like I'm holding back, scared to progress, completely confess, how much I love you even though I sometimes don't show it.

Cuz I feel I'm not perfect for you and I don't wanna blow it. So everyday I sink deeper in myself, wondering why I put so much on the shelf.

When I should be giving it all to the man I love, who was sent from above; to my lover, my partner & my legal spouse... Insecurities from the past fill our house.. I'm so scared of thinking its real, fretting inside, a timid mouse. I'm waiting for the final push.. The Failure, the ending shove.

*Along with a Goal Plan in which i encouraged personal pride in achieving throughout the relationship.




*Just as I start to feel emotionally negative (sad) my best mate comes through with the goods..





Unchained Melody with lyrics

Monday, 17 December 2012

Foresight into the Doom

309 days ago - 12th Feb 2012

I fill my mind with endless means, distract me from my self esteem. Crawling, hiding, pretending it's dead, I'm starting to escape the feeling of dread, pushing it further, away from the bed, the solice of places... The place in my head.

I'm losing track of what I feel, is this really happening? Is happiness real?
No it can't be! It wasn't foreseen! My pathways are blinded, I'm fucking the dream. Not meant to be, I can't accept this verification or justification as I can't, don't, and won't let it be.

I wish I was perfect, see for once I am now being a hypocrite to my own life of a once belief. That every interaction, even by a fraction, I would always be able communication a past hidden reflection, of memories relating to said affection. However it gets kind of demanding, and always miscontrued into some kind of self saddening. This burden of mine, my once praised survivor hood story.

If only I wasn't so tired of learning sometimes, this pre-occupational, global gatherings of journeys, never seem to get done. Round and round, I'm beginning to quieten. Keep at bay, my ability to expand my horizon. Suppressed thoughts and opinions, quenched, ridden and gone. Then sent to the spaceship, collection of data. Shot through the synthetic realm of my conscience, banished, good riddance to the voices & nonsense.

My reason behind this backwards down view expression, is to avoid the emotion of such self doubted confession. Of the outcome I allow to happen over and over again to myself. I hope to begin to learn the understanding of my visions & health: growth and incitement in a much quicker pace to enlightenment . Until then, the karma of past repeats as my spirit allows it. I yearn to be free and feel the relief of this repeating history. To the residence of karmic existence that could never forgive this, resist it, relinquish the twisted, knots from my system.. Better yet, to never have fucking existed.


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Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros - Home

Boy & Bear - Fall At Your Feet




Whenever I fall at your feet

I'm really close tonight
And I feel like I'm moving inside her
Lying in the dark
And I think that I'm beginning to know her

Let it go, I'll be there when you call
And whenever I fall at your feet
Do let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain

You're hiding from me now
There's something in the way that you're talkin'
Words don't sound right
But I hear them all moving inside you

Go now, I'll be there when you call
And whenever I fall at your feet
Do let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain

The finger of blame has turned upon itself
And I'm more than willing to offer myself
Do you want my presence or need my help?
Who knows where that might lead, I fall

The finger of blame has turned upon itself
And I'm more than willing to offer myself
Do you want my presence or need my help?
Who knows where that might lead, I fall at your feet

Saturday, 15 December 2012

Male ENTJ vs. Female INTJ



well well well iv read the PDF It's amazing I think we a very similar to the study although I think we are much more developed then it to I find we are very open to our feelings and sensing and have no problems discussing them as I think we both like learning new things and discussing these areas which were not known completely (feeling. Sensing) we are gaining more knowledge on them which I belief is maybe an evolutionary trait that maybe our generation might have as the study was done on previous generations. Which doesn't mean I'm less of a thinker or extrovert and you less an introvert or intuition but I believe we are trying to seek out a logical explanation for our incredible feeling we have and connection in the unknown realm we have as having intellect of this knowledge is the most powerful especially as we live in a more and more negative world.as to the reason why this has become possible I believe is the trust we have in each other to respect each other and I believe we went straight to a full trust level early in our relationship which was due to sensitive videos being exchange which has become a regular thing as this is the case it did not give us time to put up our usual or in my case my usual barriers and the vulnerability of each other has not been compromised or as the study says been used as a weapon against each other. Know our relationship has grown much more from this point I believe we have set a stable foundation and anything from now on will be learning with one another about each others personal boundaries and compromising on areas of grey as we Shown just last night about welcoming people into your and now I hope our home I believe our similar backgrounds have a resonating feel to our present states of mind and maybe explain our similar connection that I still can't justify to myself as logical but I want to keep utilising that area of unknown and maybe we can create something there beyond special even past that to the point of a new thesis in the scientific realm hey fuck mite even one day have an equation to work that connection out a bit far out but the way i feel with you is that anything is possible.... Xxxx.



Wednesday, 12 December 2012

Old reasons.


Old reasons. I am so over this. I am so glad I am out of this. I am so happy where my feelings lie with this. Old and in the past. 

I listened to Foo fighters yesterday. It reminded me of when I had two tickets. But you didn't want to pay for one as you'd spent you're money. And to make a point I wasn't going to pay for your ticket. So I went with a close friend. I spent the entire night on the phone fighting with you because we were scattered.

I went to the movies the other day. I remember crying my eyes out the first time I wanted to go to the movies with you. On Valentines day, In hans cafe I balled my eyed out in front of everyone from your nasty words, because we were scattered. You kept muttering insults under ur breathe to stop me from crying. Only it made it worse. 

I wanted to go to the Melbourne cup this year, but instead I spent the day in bed crying. Last year we got all dressed up but because we were scattered, you said some horrible nasty things and we had to wait for your friend to come over, I even wrote a poem about the beautiful girl in the dress, only ever trying to impress. I remember the tears of pain as I wrote that. I asked you to read it. You didn't. I hand wrote it to give to you to read, you threw it at me. I never hand wrote anything again.

Now I'm at the apple store. The last time I was here I wanted to buy you the microphone kit. I asked you to come in. You refused. You had a go at me because I asked you to park. When I got in the car we had a fight. I cried and cried in frustration from your words of torture. I couldn't handle it. I jumped out of the car on the freeway to escape. No shoes, phone or money. I tried hitch hiking home. No one stopped. It got dark. It must have been an hour before I heard you beep. You apologized and took me to the movies. Well I paid but same thing. That was the first time we ever went to the movies in 9 months. 

** So I had this as a draft to continue as thoughts came to me. 

But today, I feel so relaxed and excited for the future. Despite the obstacles, the unknown journey before me. It inspires me from within. So I don't think I need this anymore..

*** another week later, I haven't added anything more.. Because I haven't given these memories any kind of energy.  I am free. Free from the blinded pain.

Into reality and it is glorious. I love life, love the future, love the lessons and love the blessing in disguise. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to grow in strength and wisdom. 

** another week has past. Still nothing. Let's put an end to this and post it. 

On Sunday Morning - I love being psychic

As you know I've been working on my intutuion and understanding it in the psychic sense. Learning to follow it to allow me to learn what I need to about the situation at hand.

They say you dream deepest just before you awake. Well I awoke more calmer than I have all year. So at peace. Utter peace. This is how I awoke:

My Sunday introverted sleep in is disturbed: Dreamt of the future if I didn't cleanse the old energy from my life.. It was so scary I woke up. The only thing to do, is follow the message and clear it all out!! Then I can sleep again!! BOOM!

You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don’t try to forget the mistakes, but you don’t dwell on it. You don’t let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space. —Johnny Cash


The dream (vision) was of my ex, but that's not what the message is about. He was locked in an assylum centre with another friend as the world turned on 'ENFP's and captured them all due to the lack of a cure to the evil immaturity. Given these two are the only ones of this type that I know in my life, makes sense why I dreamt they were in the jail.
I was walking along the grass past where the prisoners were kept, so close I could hear the words of the songs they were all singing. Only an ENFP could be musically oblivious to be locked up with a bunch of other muso's. It seemed they werent even aware they were being held captive. Anyway there was a phone laying off the footpath which I picked up. On the screen was a random text that I had sent (in reality) to my housemate 10 days ago about rent increase. Nothing to do with anyone else and pretty simple and clear cut. It was random. Why was it on this phone outside the prison? Then I woke up.

When I awoke, with so much peace, I cleansed my house almost immediately  I packed up the remaining items tainting my energy and thought of nothing but positive thoughts for my future. Finally it feels clear and calm. Nothing is in the way. I had never felt this feeling of serenity about everything before.

I texted my mum about how great I felt and she asked why I was up so early. I said I had a dream about it. Intuition baby!




As I finished packing up and cleansing (most of it had seemed to already have been taken?!), I got a text message from aforementioned housemate. 

Which triggered the irony of the message that was on the phone in my dream that I had sent to him last week. The message last week was simply giving him 2 weeks notice of rent increase and if you had any questions to let me know. It was also the specifics of it that stood out in the vision.


So I put 2 & 2 together and followed what it was saying to me and went from there. First I told mum so she could be witness to my miracle of wisdom (lucky bluff?) and hopefully final damn chapter to it all!!!



See for yourself below, was I correct by using information only from a dream?  My very realist mum acknowledged the power of intuition after this also.







At this point my mum witnesses my claim proving true:



The denial then continues ; excuses that he hasn't said anything blah blah.  Don't over complicate it. Look at it for what it is. I asked a question, I warned not to lie, but despite this, was lied multiple times, and over several more messages, kept trying to justify the lies. It's not what was sent or said, but the fact you just lied to me!!


The other concern is my personal conversations are being passed to someone completely unrelated and if anything, the source of frustration for the past 2 months. (Behind enemy lines ringing a bell?) 

 I'm not going to embarrass him anymore by posting the ridiculous justifications that he did nothing wrong. If he had listened to me when I asked for honesty, then I would have left it at that and said don't betray my trust again with things I text you. Men just don't get it do they... oh wait.. no sorry, it's only FEELERS. Bloody personality types who use feeling to make decisions or actions rather than THINKING.



But no... insult the cause.. intuition..

f/'


Tuesday, 11 December 2012

Today's Coincidences 11/12/12

Today's Coincidences 11/12/12

1. Love - my singing to the sky.
2. Food - healthy eating x3
3. Double posts - x2
4. Mum - friendship post
5. Stats - universal moment
6. Dave - message to call
7. Messages from the past - fb on drugs
8. Doomsday host bullies - work and family




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