Friday, 30 November 2012

Yesterdays Coincidences

On the way to work, I said out loud, I want to quit smoking. I get to work, there is a Quit Smoking Post Pack someone put on my desk. #Coincidenceoftheday

I urgently needed to talk to a colleague who was away down south. As I looked through my contacts I couldn't find his details. I put my phone in my pocket and then it started ringing. It was an unknown number and when I answered, it was the colleague I needed to talk to!! #Coincidenceoftheday

One of my staff members came to me for assistance to strategise an account. What I recommended was based on a customer I had serviced myself last year. When the strategising ended, we saw in the notes in was the exact same customer I was referring to all along  #Coincidenceoftheday

I was talking to a friend after a shopping trip showing her my things, she was mid sentence when she shut her eyes and said 'WOW'. I asked if she had a head spin, she said no, she looked into my eyes and saw a bright light coming from them. She shrugged it off and said 'weird'. Why is this a coincidence? Someone unrelated last week also said 'WOW' mid conversation claiming to have seen the brightest lights flash from within my eyes. #Coincidenceoftheday

Thursday, 29 November 2012

A Friendly Coincidence

So I lost all data on my iPad and iPhone despite doing back ups. The crazy thing is all my contacts from over the past 8 years were restored. From all different accounts and SIM cards. I have no idea how but I thank the universe none the less. Im strengthening my psychic intuition and following the messages.

The other day (literally),a long way from home, in my old neighbourhood I was traffic lights and a beautiful dog. It was the same kind that my friend had until recently. (RIP BAHL) This friend I hadn't seen since in nearly two years and had over the years, the universe would always bring us back in contact.

When my phone restored the contacts, this friends old number appeared my screen during the day. Tonight I messaged. He wanted to know who it was. I asked who did he want it to be.. He responded with my name. Coincidence? Third one in a row.

We spoke at length and during the call discovered those lights where I was at last week, is where he has now moved to. And an article I had printed to send to someone on the latest physics theory (but couldn't think of who to send it to) was bought up in discussion by him! He does not have the Internet nor ever has, and read the same article as me, from the same magazine I purchased in a random shop only because I had a random appointment at that area of town. Same as I was at those lights so far from home, from another random appointment.

Don't believe me an the these coincidences? Here's proof.

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Monday, 19 November 2012

What is consciousness

Many philosophers consider experience to be the essence of consciousness, and believe that experience can only fully be known from the inside, subjectively. But if consciousness is subjective and not visible from the outside, why do the vast majority of people believe that other people are conscious, but rocks and trees are not? This is called the problem of other minds. It is particularly acute for people who believe in the possibility of philosophical zombies, that is, people who think it is possible in principle to have an entity that is physically indistinguishable from a human being and behaves like a human being in every way but nevertheless lacks consciousness. - Wikipedia

So how does my consciousness work?

INTJs’ dominant function is Introverted Intuition (Ni).
When INTJs express the need to “think about” something, this means something very different from what it might for other types. Namely, the lion’s share of INTJs’ “thinking” or processing occurs outside of their conscious awareness. In other words, their best thinking is typically done without thinking, at least not consciously.

Because it does much of its work subconsciously, Ni can seem to have a magical quality to it. In fact, it is not unusual for INJs, particularly INFJs, to be viewed as having some degree of psychic or prophetic abilities. Despite its magical appearance, Ni can be understood on a rational basis. What seems to be occurring is that INTJs have a highly sensitive inferior function, Extraverted Sensation (Se), which gathers copious amounts of sensory information from the outside world, including subtleties that other personality types tend to miss. Their Ni then subconsciously processes this data in order to make sense of it, like assembling pieces of a puzzle. Once finished, Ni generates an impression that seems to come “out of nowhere.” But the fact is that the intuition did not come from nowhere, but from a synthesis of sensory data gathered from the immediate environment combined with information from the INTJ’s own psyche.

Of all types, INTJs (and INFJs) are the most detached and disconnected from their own bodies.  INTJs commonly report being plagued by the sense that their body is not really a part of them.

Whats all this baloney about? I don't really know. I am lost, stuck. Immobile to the feeble minds that intensify hatred for myself via my intellect of the constant battle inside me that I never really wake up to, or from, because I never really sleep. The only time my mind perhaps slows down by even a percent is when I am fishing. Mind numbing and focused on a task that, in order to be completed properly, must attain at least 20% of the attention span. Which is a big break for my mind to only be running at 80% capacity. I miss fishing. I need to do it more. Heck I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. Autopilot for autonomy, the core behind evolution. My, where I stand the freedom from autonomy that I create is rarely enjoyed anywhere close for me to feel it. I am not worthy of such rewards. No sowing to reap. I am here to sow for others to reap. Actually, writing this has just reminded me of something I wrote in my most recent darkest days. Even that's going back 18 months or so. At the time I was intimidated from writing. Long story but now when I use that as excuse, I mentally slap one of me in my head. I am the controller of my destiny, my universe. I suppose its when being like that causes others to react against it, therefore making it easier to just.. be... Autonomous. 

And here it is, a few hours later I find the extract I was referring to:
2011: As I’d always believed in, we are only here till we have done our duties of bringing change for the better and positivity to the amount of souls allocated to us from birth. Once this is completed, we have fulfilled our destiny. That is why the good die young and the evil last longer. I’d come to the conclusion after great thinking, that, I had done my duty, and whilst I was still here naturally, It was because I was given the control in my mind to know when the decision is required. I knew and believed that was now. There is no other reason to depict the outlay of misfortune I believed was brought about by self karma or testing limits. I knew what needed to be done.

And to sign off, an INTJ problem commonly faced #54

Friday, 16 November 2012

Letter to my Guidance / Universal Messages

My psychic connection is going INSANE. I’m loving the messages and lessons.

My angel readings have produced 1/3 of the same cards two days in a row. Message implied was ‘Don’t hold onto the past and let it sabotage your future.’ (I’ve met a healer who treats me amazing!  - So I don't want to sabotage it)

Here is a Reading one night.

First Card - Immediate Past about the situation
Inner Power
Second Card - Present
Honoring your true feelings
Third Card - Best Possible Outcome.
Raising your standards

Here is another, similar messages.

First Card - Immediate Past about the situation
Breaking Free
Second Card - Present
Dreams Coming True
Third Card - Best Possible Outcome.
Happily Ever After

More Universal Messages: 
Then for example driving to Mandurah last night a song someone and I shared, came on and I saw it in a new light. Then I started thinking about another way we could work things out and be civil and went to grab my phone to call him… as I did an email came through from my landlord about a breach of parking for $1200. So I went on a sad streak venting in my car and called my landlord who confirmed it.

Afterwards I said to the universe that the message was obviously, ‘That If I entertain the thought to go back to him, it’s a lot more than $1200 I’m going to lose’ (which is very very true).

I thanked the universe for the message despite losing $1200 and said I understood it. I did not call him.

Almost as soon as I accepted the understanding, I re-read the email and this time is said I could ‘potentially’ be in breach and I haven’t actually be fined anything ;)

Thank you universe, once I had learnt the lesson and message, it rewarded me by removing the lesson in the first place.


It happens non stop all the time.. It’s like I’ve got the gift back that I asked my grandmother when I was 10 to release me of till I was older. And yesterday I also found an email from you that I had transcribed onto the first page of an Audrey Hepburn Diary about how I am meant to be getting the messages and to keep growing with awareness. 11th of November 2011. 

Monday, 12 November 2012

I wrote new motivators as I felt them. So much self development. I'm going crazy. But it's also exciting. An overload of information, awareness & applying . I have many more faults to battle still; more tears and conflicting decisions to make. But I am stronger everyday yet weaker also to the continuous changes & subsequent understandings.

If one wishes to experience a different result, one must first attain a different approach.. - Becky

- Goodnight to all, and here is some precious moments with my beautiful best friend.

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Sunday, 11 November 2012

Spring Awareness

Today I found these goals I wrote in August 2010. 16 months later I unknowingly accomplished 3 of these already.. Time to add some more?

I also wrote down successes I felt were important to remind myself of what I have achieved. By starting the day ready with positive affirmations will only set the tempo for a great day ahead.

Please don't judge. I've undergone a lot of self reflecting of late. Just be inspired to do your own goals..

I would like to write a new list of successes to read to myself each day. I'm going to do that now.....

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Monday, 5 November 2012

Break Up Musical Mood Lifters


Pick apart the pieces of your heart
Let me peer inside
Let me in where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mind as you do mine

You've lost (too much love) 
to fear, doubt, and distrust (not enough)
You just threw away the key (to your heart)
You don't get burned ('cause nothing gets through)
It makes it easier (easier on you)
That much more difficult for me.



You keep on giving me the hold up
You know I wish you'd make your mind up
Cuz when we get it on, you're so-so
You used to be my romeo (woa oh ay oh)
Cuz you see my dear, I have, had enough
Of keeping quiet about all this stuff
You're neurotic like a yo-yo
You used to be my romeo (woa oh ya oh)
Let it all go (woa oh ay oh)


I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone.

Whenever you see me you say that you want me back
And I tell you it don't mean jack, no it don't mean jack
I couldn't stop laughing, no I just couldn't help myself
See you messed up my mental health I was quite unwell.

[Never thought these words from a favourite song would ever actually come true literally.]

With one light on in one room
I know you're up when I get home
With one small step upon the stair
I know your look when I get there
If you were a king up there on your throne
would you be wise enough to let me go
for this queen you think you own
Wants to be a hunter again
wants to see the world alone again
to take a chance on life again
so let me go

The unread book and painful look
the tv's on, the sound is down
One long pause
then you begin
oh look what the cat's brought in


See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while I'm with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby I don't know why ya treatin me so bad
You said you love me, no one above me
And I was all you had
And though my heart is eating for ya
I can't stop crying
I don't know how
I allow you to treat me this way and still I stay