Sunday, 30 December 2012

More INTJ ranting

So I've been explaining my INTJ traits to my gfolks. My grandma said that on my report card from when I was a little girl the teacher noted "Becky does not take into consideration her classmates feelings" hahahaha soooo true... - thanks to this amazing link.. Full Credit to them for all information on this page.

INTJ Overview
Since numerous detailed INTJ type descriptions are already available on the web, we’ll just hit the high points here:

We’re smart.
We are visionaries, strategic (and compulsive) planners, big-picture thinkers, complex problem solvers, adept decision makers, conceptualists, theorists, and pattern recognizers – in short, we are “masterminds” [insert evil mastermind laugh here].

We don’t do feelings.
We use critical thinking, reason, and logic. We have a tough time with people who make decisions based on emotions, and we can often come across as blunt and cold because we ignore the feelings of others. But on the plus side, we take criticism well since we have no feelings to hurt.

We live inside our heads.
We frequently zone out. We get lost in thought and spend much of our time inside our heads. If our immediate reality becomes boring, we will retreat into our minds, and you might have to shout our names repeatedly to get our attention so we will come out again. And no, sorry, but you can’t come into our heads with us. You wouldn’t last five minutes there. You’d be driven insane by the nonstop cacophony of overlapping voices madly free-associating from one idea to the next.

We are self-confident.
No type is more self-confident than the INTJ. We have a very keen awareness of our own knowledge and abilities, and – more importantly – of the limits of our knowledge and abilities. Consequently we can come across as arrogant sometimes. This is your problem to deal with, not ours, since it is a problem of erroneous perception (yours).

We are aloof.
Because we are somewhat detached from reality, because we are introverted (we find interacting with people to be tiring and tiresome), because we are very private, and because we are impassive, we tend to come across as rather reserved and aloof. Okay, we actually are reserved and aloof.

> Conversing with an INTJ <

DON’T ask one of us a question unless you really want a truthful answer. We will not sugarcoat it for you, and we don’t tell white lies to spare anyone’s feelings. Do you really, truthfully want to know if those jeans make your ass look fat? Normal person’s response: “Um, no, you look fine. Really.” Honest person’s response: “Well… maybe a different belt would help?” INTJ’s response: “No, it’s not the jeans that make your ass look fat; it’s your fat ass that makes your ass look fat.”

DON’T express an opinion to us unless you are prepared to back it up with sound arguments and well pedigreed facts and evidence. Otherwise do not be surprised when we logically shred your opinion for you and hand it back to you in tatters.

DON’T be repetitive. We have absolutely no patience for that. There’s no need to cover old ground, and we heard you the first time, unless we were zoning out. And if we were zoning out it’s probably because you started repeating yourself.

DON’T take 100 words to say what could have been said in 10. Content-free speech will cause an INTJ to zone out faster than repeating yourself.

DON’T engage us in “small talk”. Keep in mind that you are competing for our attention with all the voices in our heads, and they are bound to be far more interesting than you. The voices are constantly regaling us with things like anagrams of Wayne Newton (Wanton Weeny, We Annoy Newt, New Yawn Tone, …) and candidate titles for parodies of “Carry On My Wayward Son” (“Cary Grant Was Six Foot One”, “Curry On My Egg Foo Yung”, …). Do you really think your talk of the weather or your six year old’s soccer league is going to be more compelling than that? Please. Be realistic.

DON’T look at an INTJ in bewilderment when he/she discloses an idea to you. Yes, it may have required a double somersault of imagination to reach their conclusion. Ask them to take you through it step-by-step; they will happily oblige. Ideas are of ultimate importance to an INTJ, and it is a compliment for them to share their ideas with you. Similarly, failing to give due attention to an INTJ’s idea is a high form of insult.

DO… um… well, we thought there should be at least one “DO” but we can’t think of one. Oh, how about this: DO keep it short. - thanks to this amazing link.. Full Credit to them for all information on this page.

Tuesday, 25 December 2012

Doomsday Confusion

That's ok, let me help explain :) the Maya's never predicted the world to end, simply the resetting of the era of time like when going from 99999 in your car back to 0000. So nothing to do with the end. However they did record an expansion of our consciousness. We only use 10% of our consciousness when we interact the world. The 90% is subconscious in our minds and this is what everyone will start utilising more naturally now as apart of human evolution (technology, information all like never before in history.) here is a quick read on it

The Age of Aquarius is an astrological term denoting either the current or upcoming astrological age, depending on the method of calculation. Astrologers maintain that an astrological age is a product of the earth's slow precessional rotation and lasts for 2,150 years, on average.

Hope that helps. Best video to watch to understand even just the first 15 minutes will help change your life for the better.. Check out this video on YouTube:

Just remember... Feel and create Love.... Never Fear..

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Tuesday, 18 December 2012

The Dove Story

*Fount this in a notebook from earlier this year*

The Dove Story

Well we're here, we made it.
To the place our dreams combined, we created. Should have thought about what to do next, guess we didn't believe we'd actually pass the test.
But it's been the best, fears put to rest, now I sleep comfortably, head against your chest, listening softly to cassettes. No more mention of the threats that's been plaguing us since the day we met.

I'm happy, relaxed. Even though I still feel like I'm holding back, scared to progress, completely confess, how much I love you even though I sometimes don't show it.

Cuz I feel I'm not perfect for you and I don't wanna blow it. So everyday I sink deeper in myself, wondering why I put so much on the shelf.

When I should be giving it all to the man I love, who was sent from above; to my lover, my partner & my legal spouse... Insecurities from the past fill our house.. I'm so scared of thinking its real, fretting inside, a timid mouse. I'm waiting for the final push.. The Failure, the ending shove.

*Along with a Goal Plan in which i encouraged personal pride in achieving throughout the relationship.

*Just as I start to feel emotionally negative (sad) my best mate comes through with the goods..

Unchained Melody with lyrics

Monday, 17 December 2012

Foresight into the Doom

309 days ago - 12th Feb 2012

I fill my mind with endless means, distract me from my self esteem. Crawling, hiding, pretending it's dead, I'm starting to escape the feeling of dread, pushing it further, away from the bed, the solice of places... The place in my head.

I'm losing track of what I feel, is this really happening? Is happiness real?
No it can't be! It wasn't foreseen! My pathways are blinded, I'm fucking the dream. Not meant to be, I can't accept this verification or justification as I can't, don't, and won't let it be.

I wish I was perfect, see for once I am now being a hypocrite to my own life of a once belief. That every interaction, even by a fraction, I would always be able communication a past hidden reflection, of memories relating to said affection. However it gets kind of demanding, and always miscontrued into some kind of self saddening. This burden of mine, my once praised survivor hood story.

If only I wasn't so tired of learning sometimes, this pre-occupational, global gatherings of journeys, never seem to get done. Round and round, I'm beginning to quieten. Keep at bay, my ability to expand my horizon. Suppressed thoughts and opinions, quenched, ridden and gone. Then sent to the spaceship, collection of data. Shot through the synthetic realm of my conscience, banished, good riddance to the voices & nonsense.

My reason behind this backwards down view expression, is to avoid the emotion of such self doubted confession. Of the outcome I allow to happen over and over again to myself. I hope to begin to learn the understanding of my visions & health: growth and incitement in a much quicker pace to enlightenment . Until then, the karma of past repeats as my spirit allows it. I yearn to be free and feel the relief of this repeating history. To the residence of karmic existence that could never forgive this, resist it, relinquish the twisted, knots from my system.. Better yet, to never have fucking existed.

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Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros - Home

Boy & Bear - Fall At Your Feet

Whenever I fall at your feet

I'm really close tonight
And I feel like I'm moving inside her
Lying in the dark
And I think that I'm beginning to know her

Let it go, I'll be there when you call
And whenever I fall at your feet
Do let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain

You're hiding from me now
There's something in the way that you're talkin'
Words don't sound right
But I hear them all moving inside you

Go now, I'll be there when you call
And whenever I fall at your feet
Do let your tears rain down on me
Whenever I touch your slow turning pain

The finger of blame has turned upon itself
And I'm more than willing to offer myself
Do you want my presence or need my help?
Who knows where that might lead, I fall

The finger of blame has turned upon itself
And I'm more than willing to offer myself
Do you want my presence or need my help?
Who knows where that might lead, I fall at your feet

Saturday, 15 December 2012

Male ENTJ vs. Female INTJ

well well well iv read the PDF It's amazing I think we a very similar to the study although I think we are much more developed then it to I find we are very open to our feelings and sensing and have no problems discussing them as I think we both like learning new things and discussing these areas which were not known completely (feeling. Sensing) we are gaining more knowledge on them which I belief is maybe an evolutionary trait that maybe our generation might have as the study was done on previous generations. Which doesn't mean I'm less of a thinker or extrovert and you less an introvert or intuition but I believe we are trying to seek out a logical explanation for our incredible feeling we have and connection in the unknown realm we have as having intellect of this knowledge is the most powerful especially as we live in a more and more negative to the reason why this has become possible I believe is the trust we have in each other to respect each other and I believe we went straight to a full trust level early in our relationship which was due to sensitive videos being exchange which has become a regular thing as this is the case it did not give us time to put up our usual or in my case my usual barriers and the vulnerability of each other has not been compromised or as the study says been used as a weapon against each other. Know our relationship has grown much more from this point I believe we have set a stable foundation and anything from now on will be learning with one another about each others personal boundaries and compromising on areas of grey as we Shown just last night about welcoming people into your and now I hope our home I believe our similar backgrounds have a resonating feel to our present states of mind and maybe explain our similar connection that I still can't justify to myself as logical but I want to keep utilising that area of unknown and maybe we can create something there beyond special even past that to the point of a new thesis in the scientific realm hey fuck mite even one day have an equation to work that connection out a bit far out but the way i feel with you is that anything is possible.... Xxxx.

Wednesday, 12 December 2012

Old reasons.

Old reasons. I am so over this. I am so glad I am out of this. I am so happy where my feelings lie with this. Old and in the past. 

I listened to Foo fighters yesterday. It reminded me of when I had two tickets. But you didn't want to pay for one as you'd spent you're money. And to make a point I wasn't going to pay for your ticket. So I went with a close friend. I spent the entire night on the phone fighting with you because we were scattered.

I went to the movies the other day. I remember crying my eyes out the first time I wanted to go to the movies with you. On Valentines day, In hans cafe I balled my eyed out in front of everyone from your nasty words, because we were scattered. You kept muttering insults under ur breathe to stop me from crying. Only it made it worse. 

I wanted to go to the Melbourne cup this year, but instead I spent the day in bed crying. Last year we got all dressed up but because we were scattered, you said some horrible nasty things and we had to wait for your friend to come over, I even wrote a poem about the beautiful girl in the dress, only ever trying to impress. I remember the tears of pain as I wrote that. I asked you to read it. You didn't. I hand wrote it to give to you to read, you threw it at me. I never hand wrote anything again.

Now I'm at the apple store. The last time I was here I wanted to buy you the microphone kit. I asked you to come in. You refused. You had a go at me because I asked you to park. When I got in the car we had a fight. I cried and cried in frustration from your words of torture. I couldn't handle it. I jumped out of the car on the freeway to escape. No shoes, phone or money. I tried hitch hiking home. No one stopped. It got dark. It must have been an hour before I heard you beep. You apologized and took me to the movies. Well I paid but same thing. That was the first time we ever went to the movies in 9 months. 

** So I had this as a draft to continue as thoughts came to me. 

But today, I feel so relaxed and excited for the future. Despite the obstacles, the unknown journey before me. It inspires me from within. So I don't think I need this anymore..

*** another week later, I haven't added anything more.. Because I haven't given these memories any kind of energy.  I am free. Free from the blinded pain.

Into reality and it is glorious. I love life, love the future, love the lessons and love the blessing in disguise. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to grow in strength and wisdom. 

** another week has past. Still nothing. Let's put an end to this and post it. 

On Sunday Morning - I love being psychic

As you know I've been working on my intutuion and understanding it in the psychic sense. Learning to follow it to allow me to learn what I need to about the situation at hand.

They say you dream deepest just before you awake. Well I awoke more calmer than I have all year. So at peace. Utter peace. This is how I awoke:

My Sunday introverted sleep in is disturbed: Dreamt of the future if I didn't cleanse the old energy from my life.. It was so scary I woke up. The only thing to do, is follow the message and clear it all out!! Then I can sleep again!! BOOM!

You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don’t try to forget the mistakes, but you don’t dwell on it. You don’t let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space. —Johnny Cash

The dream (vision) was of my ex, but that's not what the message is about. He was locked in an assylum centre with another friend as the world turned on 'ENFP's and captured them all due to the lack of a cure to the evil immaturity. Given these two are the only ones of this type that I know in my life, makes sense why I dreamt they were in the jail.
I was walking along the grass past where the prisoners were kept, so close I could hear the words of the songs they were all singing. Only an ENFP could be musically oblivious to be locked up with a bunch of other muso's. It seemed they werent even aware they were being held captive. Anyway there was a phone laying off the footpath which I picked up. On the screen was a random text that I had sent (in reality) to my housemate 10 days ago about rent increase. Nothing to do with anyone else and pretty simple and clear cut. It was random. Why was it on this phone outside the prison? Then I woke up.

When I awoke, with so much peace, I cleansed my house almost immediately  I packed up the remaining items tainting my energy and thought of nothing but positive thoughts for my future. Finally it feels clear and calm. Nothing is in the way. I had never felt this feeling of serenity about everything before.

I texted my mum about how great I felt and she asked why I was up so early. I said I had a dream about it. Intuition baby!

As I finished packing up and cleansing (most of it had seemed to already have been taken?!), I got a text message from aforementioned housemate. 

Which triggered the irony of the message that was on the phone in my dream that I had sent to him last week. The message last week was simply giving him 2 weeks notice of rent increase and if you had any questions to let me know. It was also the specifics of it that stood out in the vision.

So I put 2 & 2 together and followed what it was saying to me and went from there. First I told mum so she could be witness to my miracle of wisdom (lucky bluff?) and hopefully final damn chapter to it all!!!

See for yourself below, was I correct by using information only from a dream?  My very realist mum acknowledged the power of intuition after this also.

At this point my mum witnesses my claim proving true:

The denial then continues ; excuses that he hasn't said anything blah blah.  Don't over complicate it. Look at it for what it is. I asked a question, I warned not to lie, but despite this, was lied multiple times, and over several more messages, kept trying to justify the lies. It's not what was sent or said, but the fact you just lied to me!!

The other concern is my personal conversations are being passed to someone completely unrelated and if anything, the source of frustration for the past 2 months. (Behind enemy lines ringing a bell?) 

 I'm not going to embarrass him anymore by posting the ridiculous justifications that he did nothing wrong. If he had listened to me when I asked for honesty, then I would have left it at that and said don't betray my trust again with things I text you. Men just don't get it do they... oh wait.. no sorry, it's only FEELERS. Bloody personality types who use feeling to make decisions or actions rather than THINKING.

But no... insult the cause.. intuition..


Tuesday, 11 December 2012

Today's Coincidences 11/12/12

Today's Coincidences 11/12/12

1. Love - my singing to the sky.
2. Food - healthy eating x3
3. Double posts - x2
4. Mum - friendship post
5. Stats - universal moment
6. Dave - message to call
7. Messages from the past - fb on drugs
8. Doomsday host bullies - work and family

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Friday, 30 November 2012

Yesterdays Coincidences

On the way to work, I said out loud, I want to quit smoking. I get to work, there is a Quit Smoking Post Pack someone put on my desk. #Coincidenceoftheday

I urgently needed to talk to a colleague who was away down south. As I looked through my contacts I couldn't find his details. I put my phone in my pocket and then it started ringing. It was an unknown number and when I answered, it was the colleague I needed to talk to!! #Coincidenceoftheday

One of my staff members came to me for assistance to strategise an account. What I recommended was based on a customer I had serviced myself last year. When the strategising ended, we saw in the notes in was the exact same customer I was referring to all along  #Coincidenceoftheday

I was talking to a friend after a shopping trip showing her my things, she was mid sentence when she shut her eyes and said 'WOW'. I asked if she had a head spin, she said no, she looked into my eyes and saw a bright light coming from them. She shrugged it off and said 'weird'. Why is this a coincidence? Someone unrelated last week also said 'WOW' mid conversation claiming to have seen the brightest lights flash from within my eyes. #Coincidenceoftheday

Thursday, 29 November 2012

A Friendly Coincidence

So I lost all data on my iPad and iPhone despite doing back ups. The crazy thing is all my contacts from over the past 8 years were restored. From all different accounts and SIM cards. I have no idea how but I thank the universe none the less. Im strengthening my psychic intuition and following the messages.

The other day (literally),a long way from home, in my old neighbourhood I was traffic lights and a beautiful dog. It was the same kind that my friend had until recently. (RIP BAHL) This friend I hadn't seen since in nearly two years and had over the years, the universe would always bring us back in contact.

When my phone restored the contacts, this friends old number appeared my screen during the day. Tonight I messaged. He wanted to know who it was. I asked who did he want it to be.. He responded with my name. Coincidence? Third one in a row.

We spoke at length and during the call discovered those lights where I was at last week, is where he has now moved to. And an article I had printed to send to someone on the latest physics theory (but couldn't think of who to send it to) was bought up in discussion by him! He does not have the Internet nor ever has, and read the same article as me, from the same magazine I purchased in a random shop only because I had a random appointment at that area of town. Same as I was at those lights so far from home, from another random appointment.

Don't believe me an the these coincidences? Here's proof.

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Monday, 19 November 2012

What is consciousness

Many philosophers consider experience to be the essence of consciousness, and believe that experience can only fully be known from the inside, subjectively. But if consciousness is subjective and not visible from the outside, why do the vast majority of people believe that other people are conscious, but rocks and trees are not? This is called the problem of other minds. It is particularly acute for people who believe in the possibility of philosophical zombies, that is, people who think it is possible in principle to have an entity that is physically indistinguishable from a human being and behaves like a human being in every way but nevertheless lacks consciousness. - Wikipedia

So how does my consciousness work?

INTJs’ dominant function is Introverted Intuition (Ni).
When INTJs express the need to “think about” something, this means something very different from what it might for other types. Namely, the lion’s share of INTJs’ “thinking” or processing occurs outside of their conscious awareness. In other words, their best thinking is typically done without thinking, at least not consciously.

Because it does much of its work subconsciously, Ni can seem to have a magical quality to it. In fact, it is not unusual for INJs, particularly INFJs, to be viewed as having some degree of psychic or prophetic abilities. Despite its magical appearance, Ni can be understood on a rational basis. What seems to be occurring is that INTJs have a highly sensitive inferior function, Extraverted Sensation (Se), which gathers copious amounts of sensory information from the outside world, including subtleties that other personality types tend to miss. Their Ni then subconsciously processes this data in order to make sense of it, like assembling pieces of a puzzle. Once finished, Ni generates an impression that seems to come “out of nowhere.” But the fact is that the intuition did not come from nowhere, but from a synthesis of sensory data gathered from the immediate environment combined with information from the INTJ’s own psyche.

Of all types, INTJs (and INFJs) are the most detached and disconnected from their own bodies.  INTJs commonly report being plagued by the sense that their body is not really a part of them.

Whats all this baloney about? I don't really know. I am lost, stuck. Immobile to the feeble minds that intensify hatred for myself via my intellect of the constant battle inside me that I never really wake up to, or from, because I never really sleep. The only time my mind perhaps slows down by even a percent is when I am fishing. Mind numbing and focused on a task that, in order to be completed properly, must attain at least 20% of the attention span. Which is a big break for my mind to only be running at 80% capacity. I miss fishing. I need to do it more. Heck I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. Autopilot for autonomy, the core behind evolution. My, where I stand the freedom from autonomy that I create is rarely enjoyed anywhere close for me to feel it. I am not worthy of such rewards. No sowing to reap. I am here to sow for others to reap. Actually, writing this has just reminded me of something I wrote in my most recent darkest days. Even that's going back 18 months or so. At the time I was intimidated from writing. Long story but now when I use that as excuse, I mentally slap one of me in my head. I am the controller of my destiny, my universe. I suppose its when being like that causes others to react against it, therefore making it easier to just.. be... Autonomous. 

And here it is, a few hours later I find the extract I was referring to:
2011: As I’d always believed in, we are only here till we have done our duties of bringing change for the better and positivity to the amount of souls allocated to us from birth. Once this is completed, we have fulfilled our destiny. That is why the good die young and the evil last longer. I’d come to the conclusion after great thinking, that, I had done my duty, and whilst I was still here naturally, It was because I was given the control in my mind to know when the decision is required. I knew and believed that was now. There is no other reason to depict the outlay of misfortune I believed was brought about by self karma or testing limits. I knew what needed to be done.

And to sign off, an INTJ problem commonly faced #54

Friday, 16 November 2012

Letter to my Guidance / Universal Messages

My psychic connection is going INSANE. I’m loving the messages and lessons.

My angel readings have produced 1/3 of the same cards two days in a row. Message implied was ‘Don’t hold onto the past and let it sabotage your future.’ (I’ve met a healer who treats me amazing!  - So I don't want to sabotage it)

Here is a Reading one night.

First Card - Immediate Past about the situation
Inner Power
Second Card - Present
Honoring your true feelings
Third Card - Best Possible Outcome.
Raising your standards

Here is another, similar messages.

First Card - Immediate Past about the situation
Breaking Free
Second Card - Present
Dreams Coming True
Third Card - Best Possible Outcome.
Happily Ever After

More Universal Messages: 
Then for example driving to Mandurah last night a song someone and I shared, came on and I saw it in a new light. Then I started thinking about another way we could work things out and be civil and went to grab my phone to call him… as I did an email came through from my landlord about a breach of parking for $1200. So I went on a sad streak venting in my car and called my landlord who confirmed it.

Afterwards I said to the universe that the message was obviously, ‘That If I entertain the thought to go back to him, it’s a lot more than $1200 I’m going to lose’ (which is very very true).

I thanked the universe for the message despite losing $1200 and said I understood it. I did not call him.

Almost as soon as I accepted the understanding, I re-read the email and this time is said I could ‘potentially’ be in breach and I haven’t actually be fined anything ;)

Thank you universe, once I had learnt the lesson and message, it rewarded me by removing the lesson in the first place.


It happens non stop all the time.. It’s like I’ve got the gift back that I asked my grandmother when I was 10 to release me of till I was older. And yesterday I also found an email from you that I had transcribed onto the first page of an Audrey Hepburn Diary about how I am meant to be getting the messages and to keep growing with awareness. 11th of November 2011. 

Monday, 12 November 2012

I wrote new motivators as I felt them. So much self development. I'm going crazy. But it's also exciting. An overload of information, awareness & applying . I have many more faults to battle still; more tears and conflicting decisions to make. But I am stronger everyday yet weaker also to the continuous changes & subsequent understandings.

If one wishes to experience a different result, one must first attain a different approach.. - Becky

- Goodnight to all, and here is some precious moments with my beautiful best friend.

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Sunday, 11 November 2012

Spring Awareness

Today I found these goals I wrote in August 2010. 16 months later I unknowingly accomplished 3 of these already.. Time to add some more?

I also wrote down successes I felt were important to remind myself of what I have achieved. By starting the day ready with positive affirmations will only set the tempo for a great day ahead.

Please don't judge. I've undergone a lot of self reflecting of late. Just be inspired to do your own goals..

I would like to write a new list of successes to read to myself each day. I'm going to do that now.....

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Monday, 5 November 2012

Break Up Musical Mood Lifters


Pick apart the pieces of your heart
Let me peer inside
Let me in where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mind as you do mine

You've lost (too much love) 
to fear, doubt, and distrust (not enough)
You just threw away the key (to your heart)
You don't get burned ('cause nothing gets through)
It makes it easier (easier on you)
That much more difficult for me.



You keep on giving me the hold up
You know I wish you'd make your mind up
Cuz when we get it on, you're so-so
You used to be my romeo (woa oh ay oh)
Cuz you see my dear, I have, had enough
Of keeping quiet about all this stuff
You're neurotic like a yo-yo
You used to be my romeo (woa oh ya oh)
Let it all go (woa oh ay oh)


I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone.

Whenever you see me you say that you want me back
And I tell you it don't mean jack, no it don't mean jack
I couldn't stop laughing, no I just couldn't help myself
See you messed up my mental health I was quite unwell.

[Never thought these words from a favourite song would ever actually come true literally.]

With one light on in one room
I know you're up when I get home
With one small step upon the stair
I know your look when I get there
If you were a king up there on your throne
would you be wise enough to let me go
for this queen you think you own
Wants to be a hunter again
wants to see the world alone again
to take a chance on life again
so let me go

The unread book and painful look
the tv's on, the sound is down
One long pause
then you begin
oh look what the cat's brought in


See my days are cold without you
But I'm hurtin while I'm with you
And though my heart can't take no more
I keep on running back to you

Baby I don't know why ya treatin me so bad
You said you love me, no one above me
And I was all you had
And though my heart is eating for ya
I can't stop crying
I don't know how
I allow you to treat me this way and still I stay

Wednesday, 31 October 2012

Understanding the B to the Becky...

An old Chinese proverb was probably INTJ-inspired: "Give a man a fish and he eats for a day; teach him to fish, and he eats for a lifetime."

INTJs learn by arguing, part of their continuing quest to understand the universe. The problem is that an INTJ's "friendly discussion" may be seen by others as hostile, even obnoxious behavior.

An INTJ's home reflects his or her current conceptual pursuits. Theoretical and practical books abound. To a casual visitor, the home may seem neat, but its more private corners reflect a series of half-started projects, collections of mementos, and an assortment of potential challenges: a guitar to be mastered, a file to be organized, a household repair to be made. Dreams and visions are the INTJ's form of relaxation. 

INTJ relationships: any relationship that's good today can be better tomorrow and both parties must be directed to constant self-improvement: learning, growing, confronting, and anything else that leads to mutual self-competency. As lovers, mates, and companions, INTJs must be ever improving. When thwarted in this quest, they can become critical and often depressed over the seeming stagnation.

Most individualistic, self-confident, pragmatic and independent of all the types. Logical, critical, decisive, determined, often stubborn. Decisions come very easy. A builder of systems and the applier of theoretical models.